I’m in a long distance relationship. About a month ago my fiance told me I’m the ideal girlfriend but he doesn’t know if he loves me anymore. He said something has changed in him yet still he doesn’t know what it is and he is confused. I asked if he was seeing someone else. And he said that that someone else couldn’t even be classified as a third party because that someone else doesn’t know and he still is unsure of his feelings. He also said he is a bad person for doing it to me but still I have to know his feelings of confusion and he even was worried because I don’t have anyone to run to here. I’m in a country where i barely speak the language.
I was hurt and still am hurting because I’ve only been away for 5 months and things have changed. We already have so many plans for the future. I even took this overseas stint so as to prepare for the future – financially, that is. I really really really want to save our relationship. But it seems that he doesn’t want to because till now he hasn’t even returned my emails. He won’t even answer the phone. Maybe it is his way of thinking things over. He didn’t even tell me if he wants a breakup. He just told me he is confused. Or was it implied? I really don’t know too. He has deleted all my pictures in his social networking site save for one. He is giving me mixed signals.
I’m a mess. I don’t know if I should pray for healing and start with my moving on or if I should go on praying that our relationship will be saved for I really do love him and I know he loves, or rather loved me its just that he is confused right now.
This prayer has lately been in my mind,
God grant me the SERENITY to
accept the things I cannot change;
COURAGE to change the things I can;
and WISDOM to know the difference.
Help me pray to save my relationship, and also for enlightenment for me and my fiance.
Thanks everyone. Just the thought of letting it out has somehow unburdened me a little.