I am in desperate need of some prayers for myself. I have had a very long and difficult battle with purity since returning to the church in 2013. I use to be addicted to masturbation and pornography and was sexually active as well. Well since coming back I’ve done a fair job eliminating these bad habits. I have bad days for sure, but like my priest says, it’s something I’ll have to fight to control for the rest of my life. Since coming back to the church, I’ve realized how selfish my motives were in the past and have accepted what makes sex beautiful in marriage.
BUT, I had a major relapse in the last 24 hours. A combination of stress and dissapointment lead to me giving in and allowing myself to entertain sexual thoughts. I tried to stop thinking about it, but I just couldn’t. The temptations were very very strong; stronger then anything I felt before. Granted I never actually gave in to masturbation, I realize how bad this is. I am going to confession on Saturday to wipe this sin away and to ask my priest to pray that I have strength to handle these temptations in the future.
I would also like to ask you all for prayers as well. Please pray that I have the mercy of our Lord in this trying moment where I failed. Also pray that I have to the strength to brush away these thoughts the next time they come my way.