I need prayer, please. I’m not understanding this anxiety I am having. I have been dating my boyfriend for about a year and a half. We were friends for longer, best friends. We love each other with a deep and incredible love and wish to get married in the foreseeable future. We knew we didn’t want to live a day without each other since before we started dating. However, I am experiencing some anxiety. I feel at peace with him himself, and I couldn’t imagine a day in my life without him, however I have always had this fear that I couldn’t marry him (I know, sounds weird). For a while, it made me fearful of following God’s will (who knows what it is?) because I was afraid of the mere thought of not being able to spend the rest of my life with my best friend whom I love and would go to the ends of the earth for. I got so hardened towards the Lord because of my fear, and now I am opening myself back up to Him because I am realizing I cannot live a life of grace without leaning on my Lord in everything I do. Now that I am doing that, the fear that was diminished during that time of hardness of heart has reappeared overnight. I have been going to daily Mass, trying my best to follow the Lord, and praying for my heart to be cleansed of sins and hardness towards Christ. I have experienced fear of evil, and feeling evil around me, for about a year or so now. When I get this anxiety about possibly not being able to be with him, I am very fearful and I feel attacked. I am wondering if it is just the enemy trying to make me hesitant and scared to openness to God’s will. Then, sometimes I wonder if it is God trying to speak to me (but why would I be so fearful if it was God’s voice speaking within me?). I am so very confused. The other day, my boyfriend and I got into an argument, so I went to Adoration and left with a distinctive peace that everything was going to fine. Holding on to that peace, everything was fine and it gives me an assurance that this is where God has called me now, so I shouldn’t worry about this fear. Still, I am very confused. Is the enemy trying to keep me from pursuing God, as I am so genuinely trying to do, or is this something I should be concerned about? I know that was a complicated mess of an explanation, but I thought it was important. I need prayers, please. I can’t stand waking up at night in fear and anxiety. I just want peace and trust in God’s power over evil and my anxieties. Please pray for my intention, as well as my strength against attacks. Thank you all.