God Bless you in your time of struggle Jeanne…
Our Father, Who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come.
Thy Will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil. Amen.
I hope what I am about to add is of some help. I know, I know we are not to give advice… But I beleive God lines things up for a reason…
JUST LAST NIGHT I was reading a chapter of the book A Purpose Driven Life. Chapter 27 talked about how to avoid temptation. One salient point was that actually thinking about not doing X was actually more likely to make you give in to it. Why? Because wether you ARE thinking about doing X or trying to NOT think about doing X, ultimately you are still thinking about it one way or the other.
The book’s point on this was to redirect your mind to something else more positive. I know that can be hard, but once you build a habit, it will stick.
I just went to check. It was Chapter 27. The copy I have I got from my local library. Since it’s Saturday why don’t you check out your library and see if they have thier own copy?