I am new to this website, but in reading many of the threads and posts, I sense the sincerity and thoughtfulness of many of the responses to questions and requests for help.
I am a middle aged divorced man and although I’ve always been a true believer and churchgoer, I can best described my relationship with The Lord as a tumultuous running battle, with a lot a heated arguments and yelling. I’m not sure if I’ve been stubborn, stupid or just a plain weak sinner.
I’ve been fighting and resisting what started as a whisper and which has now turned into a loud voice that I feel is calling me to a life of service as a deacon. I keep answering by saying “You can’t possibly mean me Lord. I mean I’ve been a lifelong sinner, and now divorced. You just can’t mean me!!!”
Several years ago I dedicated the rest of my life to serving others through a charity I started to help disabled kids and their families and I thought the service I was committing to was absolutely as a lay person. But what I’ve discovered is that so many of the problems people and families face are a result of not having God present in their lives. And that’s when the whispering started!
I’m asking for prayers and advice as I try to discern whether or not this is a true calling! Thanks.