Well, I don’t where to place this thread but oh well…
*Disclaimer: This is venting situation. If these thoughts do not seem to make sense I apologize. I don’t have anyone to talk to about this stuff and obviously my wife is the wrong to person to speak to when it comes to the Catholic faith and the Sacred traditions
I feel like I am in a spiritual whirlwind right now.
How it all started:
I had an discussion with my wife of 16 years on how I really am not feeling this whole chuch choir deal because it seems to be manifesting itself into contemporary Christian programing meaning the guy who runs it is getting alot of these Christian artist(which I have nothing against and I will explain why) songs into the mass. Now I am a big time believer in Sacred Music and chant style singing during the Liturgy of the Eucharist and I feel that using contemporary Christian music in its place is not right. Granted the priest doesn’t seem to mind…long story short, my wife and I got into a really bad arguement which ended up with me getting angry(and being called out for not speaking up in her defense during a choir practice because after all a choir is an SATB set-up.) Anyway, I try to let her know that I just don’t feel that its right to be playing that kind of music program for a holy mass and well, I dont want to do it anymore…but now she does and feels she is using her talents for God even though I don’t agree with it. Well one thing led to another and I was told that I must follow what the priest says. Also, I was given a hypothetical scenario by her which basically pointed out that If the priest were to say that it is ok, I would probably end up arguing with the priest. And well she is right but…there is a little more to that than I have time right now.
Now on the the Thread Title:
I just found out yesterday that a priest was renouncing his vows to start a family. This really tore me up because it was this priest that brought me back to the Catholic faith and gave me a strong love for it(Which I am often accused,by my wife, of being a hater because of the teachings on homosexuality, divorce, etc). I broke down completely, and was confused…What could this mean? Is everything a lie? A million things ran through my head. Well I made the mistake of telling my wife and she was a surprised as I was but basically commended the priest for being brave to make such a decision and alluded to this “divorce” as an ok excuse for couples to divorce. My mistake…I should have kept my mouth shut but I knew that, in her angered and fed-up state, she would take that and use it against me :(. Well needless to say it was a very long and emotional night for both of us. Her views have always been different than mine. She is more a of loving, positive person and uses God as an example that I should be more concerned with her and the kids rather than what the decisions of someone else. i should be more loving…You see guys, I have alot of anger and hatred in me that has not been quelled. I feel the older I get the angier I get. i have less patience.
Why did I write this? I don’t have anyone to talk to about the Catholic faith. I’m accused of being argumentative, hateful and angry. I really don’t know what else to do. I guess I will just have to suck it up and deal with it. Anyway, Thanks for taking time to read this thread. I think i feel a little better knowing someone will relate…I hope.