My priest/spiritual director asked me “what if God is calling you to a different sort of marriage, the religious life?” and then said that I should be thinking about this.
I had and still have a wild mix of emotions about this. When I told two friends what he said, they said, “Well, you know, I’ve thought that about you too.”
I’m 43 years old, female, a lawyer, and I officially converted Easter 2011 altho I’ve been deeply involved with my Catholic studies for about 18 months. I was very religious as a child, up until age 17, even believing that I would be a missionary for most of my childhood and adolescence. (I was raised Baptist/Pentacostal).
But from age 18 to 41, I was on the path straight down. in my late 30’s, I thought I would convert to Judaism, but just before I actually converted, after about 18 months of studying with a Rabbi, a favorite aunt died. At her funeral, I heard a very distinct voice telling me that I couldn’t give up Jesus. Then I started reading very progressive Christian theology but was dissatisfied with what I was reading. I felt a hunger for more.
Eventually someone suggested the Catholic Church, and I haven’t looked back.
I am having a hard time trying to think thru all of the issues and thoughts surrounding this. I love Jesus and the Church, try to get to daily Mass as often as possible, read spiritual writings voraciously, and I know that this is a lengthy process, especially for someone so recently converted. I pray the LoTH twice a day (morning and night, sometimes evening) as well as other prayers; Rosary before I go to sleep, etc.
I guess basically this feels like a huge cloud of silk and I’m trying to put it into a manageable box.
Thoughts and advice are welcomed!