I would like to ask you all for advice.
Many years ago, I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I became very ill. I was lost and suffering. My levels of both disorders was high, and I could not maintain a normal life.
But, I did not have any symptoms of mental illness for a very long time, and when I came home to Korea, my mental state was fully recovered. I asked the doctor for his assessment, and he said to me:
“You show no signs of mental illness. You can stop your medicine and there is a chance that you did not have a mental illness, but rather something else.”
My body has been improving greatly, and as some of you see from my posts, I still have remanents of sickness in me. However, I have been recovering fastly and this has amazed the doctors. The defective genes I carry are moderate in nature and the sickness is hardly recognized- therefore the doctors have told me that I will “recover as the treatments will work”.
I have been praying to God and felt a strong call to religious life. I have always wanted to dedicate myself to God.
But I heard that you have to be completely healthy to be a nun- which worries me so deeply, especially about the psychological exam. I worry that I would fail the exam, although I have been declared to be free from mental illnesses. I am not too worried of the physical aspect as my body is recovering and we are working on the treatments.
Does anyone know how the psychological assessment is processed? And what is the process of application to become a sister?
I think to myself: am I “left out” and denied because I had mental illness and physical problems, and as a result, I am unfit to do God’s work? Thinking of this, it filled me with great sorrow.
Your help is greatly appreciated.