Punishment

I have a hard financial life for 4 years, before that I had a great job. I have since struggled so hard to make money. I borrowed 40,000 from my parents, 10,000 from my brother and I am barely getting by on my bills, even having some utilities shut off because I can’t pay them.
I have a severe addiction to porn and masturbation. Is it possible God is punishing me? I know the Bible teaches you to be happy when He does since it shows His Love. I can’t find the exact verse, but it goes something like that. I have no excuse for my behavior, but I struggle so hard with this sin. I can last a few days, even a week if I try really hard but than I crash.
I pray the rosary daily too. I feel ashamed praying it since I sin the same day.
So my question is, is this all coming upon me because of my addiction? I had it before I lost my job. Is God finally fed up with me? I trust in Him as best as I can, but it’s mentally draining me down.
Also I’m new so sorry if this is posted in the wrong forum :slight_smile:

Please talk with your priest.

He might be able to counsel you better than anyone, or direct you to a really good resource.

You are new to the site. I’m going to suggest watching Fr. Ripperger’s videos on his Youtube channel or his multimedia site sensustraditionis.org/multimedia.html

God Bless you. You and your special intentions are in my prayers.

I forgot to add “The Master Thread” on Porn found here at the CAF.

forums.catholic.com/showthread.php?t=1045624

Use the search feature and you may find many many more threads dealing with what you are dealing with. God Bless you.

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