Don’t really know where to begin. There’s too much to tell & keeping it simple guarantees the scope of the situation will be hugely understated.
I don’t know if I need/want prayer for help trusting God, or for relief of some unbearable crosses (Don’t you dare pray for me to just have more strength!), because I am so so so done.
Presently, I’m a single mom (annulled) of four, on disability due to chronic illness (undiagnosed) with history of childhood trauma. My oldest two were molested by there own dad, plus my oldest has Aspergers. The latest thing is that my youngest has been ill and out of school since Oct., and no one can figure out what’s wrong with him, either. Oh, and I have clinical depression which i’ve battled since my teens (yes, I’m in counseling & on appropriate meds, & my older kids are also getting therapeutic help for their trauma).
I guess the breaking point came when my close friend miraculously received first class relics of St. Philomena which caused me to foolishly hope that perhaps this powerful saint’s intercession could help. Well, after placing the relic on my son, praying over him and then both my friend and I praying a novena for said St.'s help… Nada. Now, I’ve prayed enough novena’s in my life to realize most, well, aren’t clearly answered in the way we’d like. A few have gotten powerful answers. But God knows I needed him to throw me a bone this time. I’d already had prayer warriors over the house to pray for him. He’s got throngs of Catholics and Non-Catholic Christians praying for him for months now…Not even a diagnosis.
Meanwhile I’m in the middle of a court case because their pedophile dad is trying to get custody. I’m really pissed at God. Yes I told Him! I tell Him regularly.
I can’t pray my rosary any more, and sometimes (like today) I don’t get my kids to mass because it feels overwhelming. Plus sometimes being in church makes me cry.
I’m sick of crying.
I wouldn’t commit suicide but I wish there was a fast-forward button. Please no one tell me they know how i feel - I’ve only listed the icing.
Seriously, at this point it’s ridiculous how much **** has been sent my way.
(Yes, had house blessed, done spiritual warfare, & tried all the spiritual Christian plays in the book)
Yeah, so please pray - esp. for my kids