Hello , I am trying to see that God is not calling me to the Priesthood. Yes, I said it. However since the 8th Grade I have intentively studied God. From my beginnings of a what I like to. Call a Catholic Protestant background considering my family called themselves Catholic but didn’t live it out. Till my encounter with a High school in Indiana that made me so sick and discusted that I was on my feet searching for God and had doubts that I would find him in the midst of a new school that had its principals and morality all mixed up. However in that time of crying tears, anguish and desperation I found a channel. The program was the World Over and so I was like why not. As I was watching the show I saw that they had reasons and facts to back up there claims. I was like this I can hold I. To this. So I did the days that I remained at High Land High school I held on Ewtn like Scared kid holding on to it’s teddy bear. Everyone was challenging my Faith! EWTN was my Best friend at the worst time of my life. When I got back to K3 I got invloved assisting my local parish helping the 8th graders. After my colleague allowed me to speak. The words in which Ewtn and this forum spoke. Words of education and most importantly hope came out. Friday as I was doing Stations of the Cross and it was awesome.Then I got offered to teach next year by myself! I was participating with a high school aged girl and I said to my self hmm. Only if I find a woman like that in the future to marry. Someone who is passionately Catholic! I plan to go teach Theology and Philosophy at the College level. So my dilemma is I want to serve the Church so bad! But I want a family so bad too!
I will be praying for your discernment, StephenL!
If it helps any, I am positive that your uncertainty is very normal and very healthy… and not just because I am going through it too Pray some novenas and focus just on what God wants you to do right now… there are no values or virtues that you will need in one vocation, that you will not need in another (lol hope that made sense…).
From what you said in your post about learning and relying on EWTN as you were challenged in your faith, it sounds to me as if God has something wonderful planned for you. God will make it clear; He’ll never leave you to figure it out on your own
Like I said, you are in my prayers!