I just don’t want to get banned.
It’s not about the liberals or the Protestants or anyone! I don’t want to be rejected.
Not a good time in my life for rejection. I need Christians in my life, even if they are “internet Christians.” My parish, as delightful as it is during Masses, is not particularly sociable, and all our efforts to make friends have completely failed–we just don’t have any parish friends to hang out with.
And our family at this time is really sad–my husband’s parents are aging too quickly, and Alzheimer’s has made family gatherings more sad than uplifting. And the results of the bad parenting methods of our siblings is bearing its rotten fruit–we are actually kind of afraid of our teenaged relatives–they have been in and out of trouble at school and in their community, and it’s really hard to be with them and feel safe.
And then there’s my work–I want to quit so badly, but I have too many debts and it would be irresponsible to walk away from a really good job just because our upper management is clueless and heartles.
And of course, the state of the nation–I support our President and I’m glad he defeated Secry Clinton. But I won’t pretend that all is well in the U.S.A. at this time in history. We’ve had worse times before (the 60s were scary). But it’s still depressing when you have to worry about being fired, kicked out of an establishment or event, or banned from an internet community, because you agree with the POTUS.
And my own aging–I’m in a lot of pain, but can’t get the time off work to get my joint replaced. Part of that bad management I mentioned. There are many nights when I don’t sleep and that’s why I get up at 3:00 a.m. and go to CAF for some fellowship.
Even the sport that I have loved all my life is a mess! Recently a hugely disappointing announcement was made that basically means i will never see my “dream” (not just my dream–millions of young athletes were hoping for it to happen) come true in my lifetime. Bitter disappointment. And all the “sex” crimes have changed the way the sport is done, and it’s very hard for coaches, parents, and the athletes to actually “do” the sport. It’s all so different and cumbersome now, unless you’re wealthy. It might seem silly to many, but to me, it’s the end of something dear to me.
I hope that the moderators take all these things into consideration when they ban someone. We aren’t trolls or fakers or whatever the current computer term is–we are real people, and if we have no one else to talk to outside, a computer forum is better than being alone. I apologize if once in a while, I let my personal problems affect my posts and they come out offensive or inappropriate.