Please understand that this is a sincere question (and mods, if this is an inappropriate question, please feel free to delete this thread).
For a while now, I've been pondering a potential vocation with Opus Dei. I genuinely admire the organization and its members, and I feel as though its spirituality 'clicks' extremely well with my own. I have found the organization's orthodoxy, its intensity/authenticity, and its emphasis on the 'universal call to holiness' to be particularly appealing.
But there's one thing that has been troubling me. I had been told that membership in Opus Dei (including as a numerary) involves no vows - that members are always free to leave the organization even after initially joining it (when one realizes that he/she does not ultimately have a vocation with Opus Dei). Recently, I came across an excerpt from the Opus Dei Statues which stated:
29."During temporary incorporation or when the definitive [incorporation] has already been made, for anyone to voluntarily leave the Praelature, he needs a dispensation which the Prelate alone can grant, after hearing from his own Council and Regional Commission".
30."The faithful, either temporarily or finally incorporated into the Prelature, cannot be dismissed except for serious causes which, if it is a question of final incorporation, always ought to proceed from the fault of the faithful person, himself".
"Bad health is not a reason for dismissal unless it has certainly been established that it was deceitfully concealed or dissembled before temporary incorporation".
I have also been told that if a numerary leaves the organization without a dispensation from the prelate, that he/she will have incurred mortal sin.
Is this true? Is there someone with experience with Opus Dei who could answer this question for me? This all has been very confusing to me. Thank you and I apologize for the long post.