[quote="SonCatcher, post:12, topic:252704"]
Firstly, Charla is correct that most priests are more than happy to explain the faith. They are trained to be nonjudgmental (so as to encourage people to go to Confession).
I will now try to give a theological response to some of your comments. I am mainly thinking it out and putting my thoughts down. Hopefully you will find some benefit to them.
You both are suffering. Maria's suffering is due to the physical problems associated with her premature birth. Yours is due the physical problems in your own body and in watching one you love so dearly suffer for no apparent reason.
This is the "problem of pain." How can a good and just God allow the innocent to suffer so much?
The simplest theological answer is that suffering is a product of the Fall. When Man fell, all of nature fell with him, introducing pain and suffering.
I realize there must not be much comfort in this explanation. Mary Gail is doing much better in the comfort department.
Yes, this is indeed why you suffer so much in seeing her. In a certain sense, you have insight others lack. Everyone has suffering but not everyone's is visible. You and others see Maria's crippled body and have compassion for her. That makes you love her all the more.
God alone can look into our hearts and see where we are deaf and crippled. He was moved to send His Son to share in our suffering. We can now bind up our suffering in His. Fr. Vincent Serpa in the "Ask an Apologist" forum occasionally includes a reflection on the Lord's suffering in his responses (here's one). It might benefit you to read it.
I will try to answer your original question in my next post.
Thank you too!!!! You are right. I am suffering. In a way that I have never suffered before. And believe me when I tell you my childhood is one to hide. But suffering I can handle. Any day. Seeing her suffer is what kills me inside. I can't explain the pain I have seeing her struggle to walk while murderers, child abusers and so on have no problems and many run free. I believe they will face their judgement but they will deserve it. She didn't. Sometimes I think that this all happened because I was not married when I concieved her. But I am not blind to see that even the greatest Christian people suffer the same and even worse. Looking for the why is torture. I appreciate you trying to comfort me. But in 11 years I have found no comfort so I hide it. Put it in the back of my head and forget it for a while. Until it all comes crashing out. I'll have a good cry, pitty party with anything sweet in the pantry and start hiding again the next day. Wrong I know. But its all that works right now. I have NO right to complain, cry or say I am suffering when a 11 year old child has NEVER once asked my why she is different. Or cried because all the children around her can walk, talk, learn and hear but she can't. So I feel "less than" right now complaining of my pain.
I really like your "everyone has suffering". That helps more than you could know. Not because I like that people suffer because Lord knows I don't. But it helps me to not forget that we could have it much worse and to be thankful for what we have. I thank God many times a day that He built her so strong. So beautiful and so loving. I once said "Maria has a army behind her" and that she does. She has so many people who love her and admire her. I have had many people tell me how she gives them strength and how she has changed their lives. As she has mine.