I most certainly agree with DCNBILL’s advice. A good SD is indispensible in the proces of discernment for deacon aspirants, candidates and for deacons who wish to remain spiritually healthy and grow in our faith.
However, as Lapey advised, I would encourage you to pray to the Holy Spirit for wisdom and discernment, but then remain open to wherever the Spirit leads; priest, deacon, nun, layman, or laywoman. There are benefits and drawbacks in every one of those choices, and I am not recommending any one more than another.
I am confident though, that God knows your heart, and has already prepared the perfect spiritual director for you, whoever he or she is.
What took me by surprise? The depth and intensity of the academic studies definately took my wife and me by surprise, but we love a good challenge, and we thrived in that environment.
As for wishing I had done something differently? I can say only this… “Forgiveness is giving up all hope for a better past.”