Thank you for the responses. To tell the truth, until recently, when I started trying to get to Confession on a regular basis, this was not a problem for me!
Now, it seems to be happening more and more. I’m often not sure if I dream these things completely and just remember the dream and am unsure of whether it really “happened” or not, or if I start to dream them and then wake up. That is what happened to me this morning - I woke up and thought, did this really happen during the night while I was waking up from a dream and only half-awake, did I dream it, or was it some combination? I definitely wasn’t fully awake. I’m not sure if this makes any sense. (In normal, waking hours, I don’t feel tempted to do these things and never do.)
I’m scrupulous by nature, and I’m concerned that by worrying about it a lot, I’m actually causing myself to dream about it because the worry about it is often in my head when I go to sleep! This is also distressing because it isn’t easy for me to get to Confession now.
I was going every one - two weeks, but it involved a lot of travel on public transport and took me a half-day, just to make a 5-minute confession. I would leave the house at around 7 or 8 am and get back after 1 pm. I’m expecting a baby now, and I started to find the trip exhausting and difficult - too much time on my feet, I had constant nausea, and sometimes the trains are very hot and crowded. It wouldn’t usually be a problem for me, but I’m worried about somehow endangering the health of my baby by wearing myself out. In the meantime, I can usually get my husband to drive me to a parish that is closer (but not reachable by public transport) about once a month, after some pleading! The only parish within walking distance of my house only has Confession right before Easter. Most other parishes in my diocese also do not have regular hours for Confession.
Now that summer is ending and the temperatures are dropping, it should get easier to make the trip. I’m hoping to be able to resume going to Confession more regularly, at least until the baby is born.