So if you remember, i was thinking whether i should go to confession or not. Well, when i stepped into the church, i suddenly well… know that i don’t really really need to go. I can’t remember what exactly happened but going to confession at that point makes me feel i don’t need to go mainly because i was worrying over something that i forgot to confess last time. I felt a lot more relieved and i think maybe God wants me to know if i don’t really have a mortal sin, it is not really necessary to go, although that’s better. Since i have been worrying over it for a few days and maybe i was pushing myself too hard. But then i was a little troubled again and i wanted to leave the place where we go to mass right after since i don’t want to struggle over it anymore. It isn’t exactly a question but i still don’t know what i was doing at that time. I have had some quite serious paranoia problems in the past, and i have always been a bit paranoid, so i don’t know if it’s just my paranoia acting up.
The other thing is, i have been saying the rosary (one decade at a time) but i am easily distracted. I don’t know why and i know i should be concentrating but somehow one part of me is trying to concentrate or at least know i should concentrate. But that part of me is always a bit too slow to stop myself from thinking something else. And i was wondering if this counts as a mortal sin or not even though i don’t think so.
Help appreciated, thanks!