Sorry to vent here for minute, but I feel the strong need.
I received my raise at my current job and let me tell you that it is far beyond pathetic. I am at my whits end with this job and cannot take it much longer. I am in accounting and am considering leaving this company (very seriously) and switching into a different career. This has happened the last two years and I am so mad I could spit nails. Not only do I have to deal with this at work, but it has frustrated my wife and she is wanting me to get a new job. Therefore I am not happy at my job and when I go home I feel as if I have let my family down. My wife gets mad and she has every right to and it makes me feel even worse. My head is just spinning in circles and I cannot think straight. I want to find a new job and have been trying for over 9 months with no success. I know that I do not give it my all in finding a new job, but I have so much going on, I do not feel motivated.
My wife and I have 3 kids (7,3, and 10 months) and live a very modest life, our biggest asset is our house that we just bought. We are truly blessed by that, but for the past 4-5 years I have not made a significant increase in my salary. I am trying to do everything that I can to support the family financially by working 2 jobs (my wife stays at home with the kids) and sacrificing time with the family and sleep. Not to mention with tax season I will be helping my father (a CPA) with preparing tax returns for his clients. All of this has a lot to do with why I am so stressed out, but living paycheck to paycheck is not a “fun” life. It is hard to depend on tips (my second job is a waiter) to make up the difference. It would be nice to get a new position, start a new career where I make a better salary and cut back if not cut out the second job. I really need more family time.
This is where I find my struggles, trying to switch careers. Trying to find a new job. I am trying to give this all to God, but am finding that to be a struggle as well. I want to do God’s will in my life, but have never been very good at discerning what His call is. I want to serve Him, but I am very discouraged. I am stressed out, tired, and lack the motivation that I need to make these changes. Please someone help! I need as many prayers as possible and any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you in advance for letting me vent and for any prayers!