I’m 65, product of Catholic schools and raised by devout grandparents. I left religion at 18 with extremely bitter feelings toward Catholicism and nightmare experiences with clergy. About 10 years ago, I looked into an Episcopalian Church and also an Anglican Catholic. Both were very positive experiences, however, I felt Catholicism would show respect for my grandparents and general cultural background. I try to attend mass every Sunday but so much of it makes me uncomfortable.
As an example, our priest loves to bless everything as often as possible by having congregation raise right hand. This bizarre custom showed up while I was “absent” and makes me squirm. Three generations recognize this frightening gesture as a Nazi salute. I will not do this. How did this awful image become a part of the mass?
There is no magic in my right hand, plus I have three close family members who fought in France, Belgium and Germany, one buried at Normandy.
This is enough to keep me at home on Sunday. Am I alone here? I would like to be a “good Catholic”, however so much disturbs me.