Hey there. It’s me, Mr. Superscrupulous again. I’ve made some headway with worrying about my issues, but I’d like to ask you guys a question; what’s the main difference between reading about something sexual and reading something for sexual pleasure? I have several examples that I came across that would help explain my situation:
First thing was when I was reading a comic book, I came across a section where the character has to investigate a seedy club. I purposely went and skipped anything that was purely sexual in nature, but noticed that I would read the names of the posters and presumably some of the people who were there. Same thing with other posters, where there were such things as an AA number, suicide hotline, and what appeared to be a number to call the place for an “escort” obviously to give it the atmosphere.
Second thing was when someone went and explained the meaning of some lyrics to a song, explaining that the sexual content they refer to in the song actually has deeper meaning to it (it should also be noted that the song was also in a completely different language).
Third thing was when someone was writing about a story and they wrote that the character then had sex at some point.
Fourth thing would be the song “Roxanne”, a popular song by The Police. In it, the singer is talking about a prostitute and saying that she doesn’t need to go out anymore.
Fifth (and hopefully final) thing was about my own writing desires, lamenting that if I ever tried to tackle a sexual issue in my stories that my own conscience would beat me up for it, even if it weren’t meant to be titillating.
I believe that’s it for now. I should let you know that in no situation I personally desired to get stimulated by this or, at some points, try to read them, but just noticed that I’ll see words and read them without even thinking. Thank you, and God Bless.