First let me apologize to anyone I’ve offended with any of my posts lately. I haven’t been myself.
Life is getting to be too much lately. I try to stay positive but I just keep hitting the wall.
Our youngest son has medical problems which are enough to make him hard to care for, but not severe enough to qualify for medical or financial assistance. We are in alot of debt because we had to use credit cards for the first few months of his life for pretty much everything because neither my wife or I could work. We just started to get out of the hole when our transmission went. I don’t have to tell you how much that cost.
We live smack dab in an urban neighborhood of a large East Coast city which has just set a record for homicides this year. Our neighborhood is rapidly deteriorating. People from outside the neighborhood are buying houses and renting them for a song to who knows who. We have to send our kids to private school because the public schools here are a sick joke, and we want them to get a Catholic education.
I can’t stand it anymore. I’ve always been grateful for everything we have, but the area is just getting worse and worse, literally by the week. We can’t afford to move. I can’t work full time because of my son’s problems, and we can’t afford childcare for them anyway. My wife makes the bulk of the money. She is paid well,
but we just can’t get ahead. I can’t even provide for my family. I feel like a total failure. I could go on…
I’m sorry, I just don’t know where else to go with this. I am on the verge of despair. I have no friends anymore. They pretty much abandonded me when I stopped drinking eleven years ago.
Any advice or prayers would be greatly appreciated. I’m sorry its just hard to keep going.