This is very tough to explain, and hopefully no one thinks I’m crazy. I have to tell someone though, because I feel like I’m going crazy.
Unfortunately I used to dabble in the occult on and off. Well for several years now, I’ve felt like something was around me. I don’t know if it’s evil or what, but it strikes fear in me. It’s bothered me in just about every house I’ve been in.
It makes me so afraid to be alone, because I always feel like something is watching me. I’m afraid to go into the kitchen, though that isn’t as bad now. I’m afraid to go into the bathroom. I’m afraid to go into my bedroom sometimes, especially at night.
When I try to sleep in my bed, I always sense something around me, like either right behind or over me. It is a very warm sensation, and very tangible. Sometimes it feels so real I have to feel around to check there isn’t actually something physical there.
This is happening to me right now. I feel terrorized because every time I start to settle down to go to sleep, I think I hear something.
I should mention that I’m totally blind, so that increases the paranoya. I don’t know if I’m just scared because I can’t see what’s around me, or if there is actually something that is scaring me. But I used to not feel like this, so I don’t know.
I had my fan on, so it was harder to hear what’s going on around me, which makes it worse. I’m very perceptive to subtle changes in the noise around me, so every little thing would really freak me out, because I’m already on edge.
I even slept on the couch for a few weeks because I didn’t feel it as badly out in the living room, but I don’t want to have fear running my life like this.
So, again, I don’t know if I’m just imagining things because I can’t see what’s around me, or if there is actually something that is causing me to be so afraid.
But the bottom line is, I can’t stand it anymore. I’ve tried praying about it, and for a while that helped a lot, but it’s been getting stronger again for the last few nights. I’ve not slept at all tonight because I just can’t stand it.
I’m afraid to tell anyone because of what they might think, so that’s why I’m posting here.
What should I do?