Okay I’ve hit my breaking point.
My life problems, are mostly school problems and I thank God they are not worse.
But, I just don’t know anymore if all the obstacles are a message from God or if the devil is trying to block my path. I’ve tried to be optimistic and handle each problem, but it gets tough.
Basically, I’ve been trying to go to a certain school program and I’ve run into some problems.
I had to take a placement test and I had to go to a different campus to take the test. It was kinda far. Then I went to pick-up my results and for some reason they didn’t show up…well, after much hassel I got that taken care of.
Financial aid…I knew I was not eligible for grants, but I was hoping to get loans…I’m still working on that because the school really didn’t want to give me loans.
I got a job in that area so I could work and live in that area, now they are cutting back hours and I’m not sure how I can afford a place.
I applied for another job…My Cell phone died and they couldn’t contact me, but there’s still hope. I just couldn’t believe that my cell phone died when I had calls that are important. It was just a few days ago.
Now, today the tuition was due. Last week, I set up a payment plan so it could be divided up into smaller payments through my credit card.
I just checked my credit card to see if the scheduled payment was made today.
Unfortunately my school could not charge my card because of security reasons. My card was blocked.
My card got charged in California and Texas yesterday, I don’t live there, so obviously someone got hold of my information. Now I have to get a new account number and card. These are just some of the problems I’ve come across.
I don’t know, it just seems like so many obstacles.
Does God not want me to go to that school?
Is He trying to test me somehow?
Or are these obstacles the work of the devil?
I wish I could know, I have no idea what to do. But this stuff happens to me a lot. Even my family has noticed and my mom says that perhaps I need to be blessed.
Can anyone relate? I’m going to try to find a priest whom I can speak to. I think I’m going to try and find a spiritual director. I just wish I knew when it was God sending me a message or the devil trying to trip me on my path.