I am really struggling with understanding what vocation God has made me for. (I purposely avoid using the word “discernment” because I think its overused.)
One one hand, I am really in love with God. But, on the other hand, I still am holding on tight to my desire to have children one day.
Now, am I being excessively stubborn in holding on to this desire or should I wait longer to see if God has a spouse for in min the future?
Is there any way to reconcile a desire to marry Jesus (religious life) and have biological children?
and in general this has been made a lot harder for me since I am plagued with indecisiveness.
(Also, I don’t have a spiritual director and probably won’t be able to get one anytime soon)