I will try and keep this short and sweet. I was not always Catholic, and had my tubes tied after having 5 kids with my first husband. When I remarried a Catholic I converted and had a tubal reversal. Since then we have had 7 early miscarriages. In three years. I am wiped, emotionally and physically. I just recently had that 7th miscarriage (Valentine’s day) and I am honestly seriously done with this. I cannot keep this up. My blood pressure is now through the roof,(gets worse with every miscarriage) and I am battling a depression that I would not wish on my worst enemy.
I feel like I am no longer open to life, this feels much more like purpose allowing babies to be created and then my body kills them.
Medical tests have revealed nothing. I feel like I am the abortaficient. Artificial birth control is beginning to sound like a good idea. I know it is not. I do. But I am not a receptive vessel for these babies and ABC feels like a lesser evil.
Can anyone relate?