I’m a few weeks into the RCIA program, but have found myself in a state of limbo.
I was baptized once, when I was 14, as part of a large ceremony in a Baptist church. I didn’t know what it meant, nor did I really care. The church made a big deal about it, wanting to baptize as many people as possible, so I was one of probably 50 or so people in line that day. It meant nothing to me, and since being baptized, I’ve lived a life anything but Christ-like, or worthy of being seen as a child of God.
I’ve expressed my desire to be baptized by the Catholic Church, however, the RCIA director will not permit it. He says you can only be baptized once, and that’s it. He asked me to provide the documentation (certificate, etc) showing that I was baptized, but unfortunately, the Baptist church as no record of it ever having happened. With this in mind, he still will not allow me to be baptized, rather, wanting me to fill out a form, signed by people who witnessed the baptism.
This, to me, is unacceptable. I do not feel I have been properly baptized, nor have I ever really cared, until this very moment. I do not believe it would be invalid for me to be baptized, in light of having previously gone through a ceremony. I find it very hurtful that the Church would want to segregate me from others who have not been baptized. I feel as though if Jesus were here, He would not deny me my baptism.
I’m so frustrated. :mad: