I feel so ashamed. After seventeen months, almost a year and a half without cutting myself, I went and cut my arm with a razor blade a little while ago :crying:.
After *seventeen months!*I’ve had more stressful things to deal with during that time! Why now!?! Is it just because I wanted attention? It just makes me so mad to think that it might have been.
I’m scared now, scared of falling back into that pattern. I don’t know if I can pick myself up from this. If I can cave to the remedial pressures I’m dealing with right now, who knows what other kinds of things might set me off!?
…seventeen months…down the drain…
What am I going to tell people, especialy my boyfriend, if they see the cuts on my arm? How am I going to cope when my roomate leaves for the weekend and I’m by myself?
Prayers and advice would be appreciated.