This is my first post, so I don't know if I'm doing this right.
Recently I have been struggling with the thought of never finding a future spouse. I know this is somewhat common, but I could definitely use some advice, comments, prayers, ect. Here’s my situation: I am in my early twenties and I have always left finding true love in God’s hands, but as I am getting older I feel like my chances are getting slimmer by the day. I attend a college where the main concern for the students is getting drunk at parties and hooking up with the prettiest girl or most handsome guy at parties, which is absolutely not the type of lifestyle I consider myself to be a part of. I am the total opposite, a non-drinker/non-partier (that is when it comes to people becoming totally wasted) and before moving to college I would enjoy sitting in adoration with the Blessed Sacrament every day, but now my faith just seems to be lessening. The very small percentage of student population who are faithful Catholics has also weakened my drive to grow further in my faith. At times it has been difficult seeing my friends date and talk about marriage when I have never been in a relationship or even on a date before. I think about how nice it would be to save myself and maybe even my first kiss for my husband on our wedding day, but in today’s society it is hard to remain strong in my faith and believe there is a guy out there who is willing to do the same for his future wife. Sometimes I believe it is crazy for wanting to save my first kiss for my wedding day…would a guy really respect that or would they be drawn away because of it? I just wonder sometimes, will I find that guy who will be my best friend, who will help me grow in my faith just as much as I can help him, who would not mind spending an evening in adoration, and who would build upon our relationship with God in the center?