I keep on having these dreams (much much better than the nightmares i was having) about the Eucharist. Ok here it goes
Ist dream: i was in my parish (it looked like my old Protestant church, but it was Catholic. Everyone was receving Eucharist. I got so upset that I was the only one not able to rreceive becasue i wasnt baptized yet. (this is actually true in real life-im the only one who doesnt receive in my parish) i was so upset in the dream that i turned around so i wouldnt have to watch other people receiving. then as everyone is leaving i was sitting there alone. the church was so bright, the sun was pouring in through the window and casting light where and around where i was sitting, then my priest comes up to me. i knew he was feeling sorry for me, so he (this is all in the dream) hands me a peice of bread. the bread is NOT consecrated. i stand up and hand it back to him and said that i wanted to wait until i could REALLY receive Jesus in the Eucharist. i was almost irritated with him in the dream after he handed me an unconsecrated host.
2nd dream (i had this one this morning): i was sitting in my parish (it look exactly like my parish) ad i was watching everyone receive. and then as my priest was finishing he walks over to me and hands me a CONSECRATED Host. i try to hand it back saying "no im not baptized i cant receieve) he says that i can and he administors to me as if i were receiving in my mouth. as soon as the Host touched my tongue i woe up, but i didnt just wake up at almost flew up in bed and sucked in my breath really hard.
now i would never receive Eucharist until i am allowed to, never. but what do you guys think about all of this?