Hey everyone, right around this time six years ago I posted this thread topic:
At the time I didn’t think much of it. I was in college, not quite sure of my decision, and honestly was probably calling out for someone to tell me what to do. I hadn’t ever visited the forum before, so had no idea what people would say. The early responses I got were interesting, so I thanked the posters and moved on. I never used the account again.
Recently, someone in my family has died, and they were very close to the Catholic faith. This has caused me to look back through memories, and while rummaging through the old email address I used to register for this account, I stumbled across this thread. I had no idea the thread would continue on for much longer and become so popular. Probably most of the people who participated in that thread aren’t regular posters anymore (many are banned it seems), but I thought I’d revisit the topic with a new perspective, as I now have a family and am looking to establish a good foundation for our faith. I’m not quite sure if revisiting old threads is even allowed so maybe this will get deleted, who knows.
Fast forward 6 years, I’m still not a practicing Catholic. The church’s stance on certain social issues was the main driver in my departure. My family and I belong to a different church, but as I’m sure many people end up discovering, it never quite feels like home. When you’ve spent the first 18 years of your life learning about the sacraments, Catholic doctrine, and living by the somewhat strict rules that Catholics follow, joining another church can feel kind of bland. I want my children to be close to God, but it’s quite hard to encourage my children to be as close to God as I was growing up, because I don’t have the same fire my parents did.
So, plainly put, I’m in a pickle. I want my children to know God, and have a good faith. I’m left with a guilt in my gut, as I left my original faith (and if I had full knowledge of that faith I can’t go to heaven).
TL;DR - How do you act as a spiritual leader for your family, when you have a somewhat overbearing guilt of leaving your previous faith?