I was reading the bible the other day and thinking how, beginning with Adam and Eve and all through the history of man, after seeing the power of God man still rebels. Well call me Man.
As a child, religious education was not part of my upbringing. ( although my older brother and sister went to catholic schools and revived all the sacraments of initiation ) There were crucifixes hung in almost every room but that was about it. Oh and when I did something really bad I was told it was a sin. ( what exactly is that?? ) But I felt God was there. I would pray every night hoping I was doing it right. Every time I said a bad word I said sorry God. I felt he was was there helping me and life was good.
Then I thought that God wasn’t so important in my life and made a lot of bad decisions. Some of the things I was doing and places I was going were putting my life in danger and I know he was there helping me through. Then I actually joined the Church and God turned things around. Then his importance to me began to fade.
I could go on and on. Right now I am having a strong draw from God. I feel so close to God, Jesus, Mary , and the saints. I pray that I can learn from human history and not repeat the get close to God, get comfortable, fall from grace and feel alone, look for God and find him there, and feel even worse than the last time for not trusting in him roller coaster ride that so many have been on.
Lord Jesus I pray that all may know and feel the love that You and the Father have for us and not wavier in our faith in the plans that you have for us of eternal peace if we only believe in and follow the teachings of the Son our Lord JESUS :amen: