This might seem like a silly question, but I have an over-scrupulous personality, so it’s really been bothering me. Anyway, I made a personal vow to God to omit a certain activity, and to show God that I was serious, I vowed on pain of forfeiting all my blessings. I broke the vow one time, and I intend to keep it in the future. However, the fact that I vowed on pain of such a serious penalty is hanging over my head. So I have two questions:
Do personal vows even work like that? Can you vow to omit an activity on pain of a penalty that you choose, or is it soley God’s prerogative to decide what the penalty will be if you break a vow?
If it is valid to vow on pain of forfeiting your blessings, is there anyway to get dispensation?
Again, I’m sorry if this seems ridiculous, but it is really eating away at me.