I had a chat with a priest today and he was very helpful.
He told me that if you have decided to make the necessary changes to your life that it is possible to stay out of mortal sin. This is the third priest that I have spoken to and they have all said the same thing.
Thanks to everyone for their help and support. I’ve found the site very helpful in helping me to understand my faith. Particular thanks to those with similar problems who have answered my posts as it has been very reassuring to realise that others can struggle with similar issues. Also particular thanks to Bookcat for stressing the need to talk to a priest.
I’ve been told to stay away from the internet as it us exasperating my problem.
One thing which unfortunately has caused me trouble has been the frequent posts about mortal sin (I know that I am guilty of those types of posts too). These posts have led me to believe that mortal sin is very easy to commit and I feel this type of thinking causes every scrupolous person to re examine all their actions and look for mortal sin.
Nothing is black and white and I think that a good priest is necessary to help apply the ttheology to real life situations. The advice about a regular confessor and also a spiritual director is spot on.
Some of the posts e.g. the current survey about how often people commit mortal sin can be very damaging to those with Ocd or anxiety issues and it can make people believe that mortal sin is easy to commit.
I know this site is possibly a magnet for those with scruposity and I hope that any of my posts have not misled people.
One thing that has provided great consolation is the Chaplet of Divine Mercy. It was after praying the Chaplet that I got the idea that it was a simple issue of taking up the phone and making an appointment to speak to a priest and I know that this is no coincidence.
Once again thanks for all your help.