I was reading a few excerpts from “The Ladder of Divine Ascent” (St. John of the Cross), and one particular thing caused me concern. Basically, a monk is supposed to let go even of his parents.
Also, has it ever been taught that asceticism is required for even lay people? Not just skipping a meal occasionally…but fasting, all-night vigils, drinking less water, long hours of prayer, etc.
The more I read about certain topics, the more dejected I get that the current vocation I’m in is worthless and that I’m doing nothing of value (nevermind the numerous sins). If I’m not hungry or thirsty or tired, I feel a little guilty.
Is salvation attained only through an ascetic lifestyle?
Should I stop reading, or is it better to continue reading but keep in mind the intended audience?
I don’t know if the devil is causing these thoughts to discontinue reading or if I should stop reading advanced spiritual writings.