I’ve been dealing with a life/death issue for a last few weeks, and I’m having a hard time getting a hold of it.
A couple of weeks ago, my mom passed away. I was not very close to her. As I got older, I learned some things about her that directly or indirectly impacted our relationship.
I knew she had a extremely difficult childhood. Her parents died when she was young, and lived in foster care in NY state until the mid 1930s before going to live with other family members. She had a difficult time forming relationships with people, and unless you took the time to understand her quirks it would seem that she’s didn’t like you.
It seems odd, but towards the end of her life I happen to be reading St. Faustina’s diary. I came across a sentence that struck me: “Only that soul who wants it will be damned, for God condemns no one.”
Further in the Diary regarding the despairing soul: “Jesus calls to the souls a third time, but the soul remains deaf and blind, hardened and despairing. Then the mercy of God begins to exert itself, and, without any co-operation from the soul, God grants it final grace. If this too is spurned, God will leave the soul in this self chosen disposition for eternity.”
My interpretation: as long as we cooperate with God and take an active role, we can be saved.
Where I stumble, what about nurture and how does that impact a soul’s salvation? What if the soul is incapable of participating or cooperating with God?
Another question I have is with Divine Mercy. I was married outside the Church and my wife doesn’t want to do a small ceremony in the Church. Until then, I realize that I can’t participate in penance or Holy Communion. Would it be fair to say that Divine Mercy could be my only salvation for now until I resolve my other issues?