I may be close to considering myself agnostic. I do not take this lightly.
There is a part of me that yearns for God to exist, although I can not be certain. Yes, my faith is weak.
I have committed many sins. Most of these sins I am repentant of, but not necessarily because they offend God. By their nature, sins are harmful. I have harmed others and for that I am sorry. If there is a God, he knows this. He knows I try to be a good person in spite of poor judgment.
I don’t believe God will throw a sinner into unquenchable fire; because if he exists and is reasonable, eternal misery, pain sorrow and sadness for 70 misspent years is overkill. If a soul exists and is eternal, one lifetime is such a tiny speck compared to our eternal consciousness, I can’t believe that a just God would determine an eternal judgment based on one lifetime, not even a speck in the vastness of eternity.
This question is not a test, and I’m not trying to start trouble here. But let’s assume I am wrong. Do you think if I hold onto these beliefs, or lack thereof, it’s likely that I will in fact, end up in hell?
I would ask, that if your response is “Only God knows and can judge” then I already know that. I am asking your OPINION on what the church teaches in a situation like mine.