[quote="LoveGod102, post:1, topic:336790"]
I need some advice.
I struggle with scrupulosity, although it has been a lot better lately and I know how to handle it now for the most part.
Lately, every time I go to mass, I worry that the priest or someone else at mass has done something incorrectly, thereby invalidating the Eucharist. EVERY single mass, my mind hooks on to some little thing, that may or may not be allowed (I really don't know the specific things that are and aren't allowed at mass), and makes me worry that Jesus isn't truly present. Then I worry that I shouldn't receive Him, because I'm doubting, even though I keep telling myself that He IS present, and trying to believe, and I do still receive Him, because I know that this is scruples, but I don't know what to do about it.
Also, when I see Jesus in the Eucharist, it seems so impossible that what looks like a piece of bread is really Christ, Jesus, that I doubt unintentionally. I pray often "Lord, I believe, help my unbelief", but it feels like He isn't answering me, or is saying "no".
The really good thing is that you truly do know the truth. You truly know that the Mass is valid. You truly do know that you can receive the Eucharist.
It is the OCD working your mind in the habit that goes over and over and over. Its a true disorder, so it is not really your own thoughts - but the disordered thoughts going over and over and over.
You know that God understands all of our disorders.
You know that your priest and your bishop make certain that the Mass is valid.
You can meet with a therapist who can help you learn how to think differently - how to allow your regular mind to work and push aside those OCD /scrupulous thoughts. Speak with your doctor about finding help to free yourself.
Your priest can help as well.
May God give you peace. May God lead you to someone who can help you replace the OCD thoughts that disrupt your peace.