I apologise if this is in the wrong forum as I am new around here. Before I ask for advice, I would like to share a little bit about me first (if that’s ok). I was baptised in the United Free Church of Scotland as a baby, my mother is a Catholic and my father is a Protestant and they were married at the time. My parents since divorced after my father was having an affair over 20 years ago and I haven’t saw him since. From an early age, I would attend the local United Free Church of Scotland and was very curious about God. I also would attend Mass on a Sunday evening with my maternal grandparents - who are both Catholic. In 1998, I became a Pentecostal Christian and served in that church for several years before becoming disillusioned with my faith. I had been through a devastating time in my life and my faith in God was not as strong as it once was.
A few years ago, I tried to get back into what I believed only to find that I didn’t really believe some of the doctrine and teachings of the Pentecostal church. Most of which contradicted the Bible and this left me so confused. My children attend the local Roman Catholic primary school and they go to Mass on the Holy Days of Obligation. I would go to the Mass whenever they did with the school and I had an overwhelming respect for the Church.
I have recently been going to weekday Mass at my local parish and am totally convinced that this is the Church that Jesus left His people. The Eucharist - for me - reduces me to tears almost every time as I feel Him so close to me like I’ve never felt before. It is so solemn and exactly what it should be. The Mass itself gives me peace and brings me closer to Him, it is so biblical as well. Lately, I have been watching archives of The Journey Home with Marcus Grodi, reading books by Scott Hahn, watching videos of Michael Cumbie and reading my Bible a lot more than what I used to. The Mass has made me finally see that it’s about Christ, not about me. In my time in the Pentecostal circles, I was very me-orientated in getting what God could give me. Now, having observed Mass a few times, I realise that its all about Him and that is amazing!!
I am considering buying a Weekday Missal and a Catholic Bible (as most of my Bibles are Protestant) in the coming weeks. I truly believe that God is calling me home to the Roman Catholic Church. I have every intention of raising my children Catholic also - however they do need baptised first (sooner rather than later as my eldest daughter wants to receive Holy Communion in 2016 with her class). The Church is truly God’s church and I now believe that.
My questions now are as follows:
- what should I do next?
- do I need to be baptised again?
- can anyone recommend any other books about the Catholic faith to deepen my knowledge and faith?
Thanks for reading and looking forward to hearing from some of you regarding this.