Gingersnappies… please talk to a priest and tell him you have OCD.
AS far as I have understood from replies from ask an apologist, it is not possible to sell one’s soul to the devil. To REALLY, CONSCIOUSLY, SERIOUSLY attempt it would be a grave sin, but with OCD, thoughts often come into the head automatically, as you write, for some reason you don’t quite know. As somebody said here, like lacking the filter to filter them out.
OK I was torn should I post this but I decided it might probably help you. So here is the post i wrote and deleted again:
I think similar things have been discussed on this forum before, for example here
(now one caveat. With OCD such thoughts often come intrusively, automatically, without you wanting them, and then are NOT sins. Actually I am being torn now should I post these links or not, because for somebody with OCD many such things may be very different, and I do not want you to worry )
Here is one post:
But more importantly now, read this, also from ask an apologist:
Also have a look at this story forums.catholic.com/showthread.php?t=689932&highlight=ocd+car+soul
especially read the reply of Mustang 1971
I have scrupulosity myself and sometimes I have been tempted (for a while this happened very often!!!) to make a promise, like for example if I found something again I’d have to… something like give up a big dream, never do anymore something I like, or whatever. Such thopughts would come into my head so fast that afterward often I was unsure, did I now promise it or was it just an automatic thought?
Sometimes I am not sure if something was just a thought or an intention, or did I make an actual “promise” in my head?
Please talk to a priest about this problem. I have gotten priestly help myself and was reassured so many times; trying to learn now to trust myself…and trust Jesus, God, of course! Who is LOVE.
Maybe you can talk to the priest who celebrates mass today? If there are confessions, you may go there, and just state your problem, you dilemma, your fear. If there is anything you need to confess, the priest will tell you. Or he will just reassure you, and help you feel the love of God (of course, there may be other things you wanted to confess anyway ). But you need to tell him you have OCD, or mild OCD how you state it.
With all this said and even links given, I must caution you still about trying to get help from the internet. I often find more things to worry about when I try that… really your best thing to do is talk to a priest… preferably somebody you already know, but otherwise just take your chance and walk up to one, but be sure to tell him in the beginning that you have OCD
May God bless you and reassure you… try to feel HIS Love in prayer…
And remember that OCD/scrupulosity has a ways to put doubts into our heads. If you feel you suffer from scrupulosity, read this. You may find yourself in it… If you are not sure if what you ahve is actually scrupulosity, ask your priest, he is probably experienced in it (maybe ask him first if he is experienced in it ? )
all the very very best… I hope I didn’t post anything wrong … (see how I am also scrupulous? )