I am a girl (otherwise anonemous) and I decided to come on here because I need prayers for several things. In this post I will say what (and try to explain why, without being too specific.) I hope it isn’t too much or too badly phrased, & thank you to anyone who prays.
Five years ago, I went to school with a girl who I badly wanted to be friends with, & who I SHOULD have been friends with. (She was so nice, and that schoolyear should have been great. But I had no idea how to behave, so it wasn’t. I had social difficulties, & other problems. It was awful.) Anyway, all that has now been solved, & recently, I heard important news about this girl. It caused me to experience a…’blast from the past’, & to reflect on what a beautiful personality she has. So please pray that, if God wishes, I will encounter her again, & maybe become friends with her (& apoligize for not knowing how to behave, that must have made me seem unfriendly.) But if God doesn’t wish it, I can understand; her life & his plans are absolutely none of my business. But please still pray that he will spare me from an unhealthy obsession (I tend to get obsessed with people I badly want to be friends with) & that she & her family will have good & happy lives.
Nowadays, I go to a different school, where I am in a very special year. It is supposed to develop a lot of skills etc, but people can use it to be lazy or idle, or as a year of messing around. To be beneficial, it needs effort, initiative, motivation…etc. I want to use it properly, use all my ability,& do everything with it you’re supposed to. But this is not easy for me…Please pray that God will help me, & that he will make sure I use it properly, & to it’s full potential, & not for things like thinking too much & daydreaming. Please pray it doesn’t end up like the year in the previous paragraph.
I have also being trying to rebuild my life, b/c I have gained some very sad experience since 5 years ago…I won’t go into all that, but I know they were important lessons, & it was good for me really. They really don’t effect me anymore, & I’m ready to move on. But this is just-difficult…Especially since I still have to live with an awful family situation…though I know too well not to let that effect me. (And it’s like the sad things that happened 5 years ago were a catylist for afterwards, but that’s complicated. It feels sort of as if those 5 years never happened, in the sense that I have learned from them, but I now no longer feel so much over them, & I’m not so interested in thinking about them. Instead, I can look at 5 years ago & think about then & the effects on afterwards objectively.) Anyway, please pray that God will help me rebuild my life, & NOT dwell on the past. (But it’s weird, b/c unless I dwell on SOMETHING, I usually have an empty feeling & want a lot of attention. And although the people in my school are nice (I am very, very lucky), it wouldn’t work me being proper friends with them, & they don’t always pay attention to me, & I feel left out.) Please pray also that if God wishes, he will put an end to my awful family situation (which is really quite ridiculous) & that he will help me do his will in all aspects of life.
Please pray also that I can rebuild my relationship with God, the saints, etc…I really love them, & I used to do my best for them, but since I was exposed to some mean people, & since my sad experience has decreased my feelings, it has been more difficult. And they’ve done SO MUCH for me! It’s really not fair; I want to thank them & pay more attention to them again, & do a lot more for them.
One more thing- God has entrusted me with the care of 2 beautiful sister hamsters.At first I couldn’t even think of spiritually appropriate names for them, but that has been solved. Please pray that I will be able to care for them properly, give them all the attention & freedom they want, keep them happy as they so deserve to be, preserve them from harm, & not make any mistakes in caring for them. (I have birds too, & I think they have everything they want, but please pray that God will guide me in caring for them too. It’s such a responsibility.)
Thank you in advance for all your prayers. I’m sorry if this is badly written, but I’m no good at writing things like this so it was difficult. And sorry if it’s too long, but it helped me to express it, & I don’t really talk like this with people irl. I won’t write any other messages or post in any other threads, but I will pray for all you too.
Thank you again!