I am new to this site, but have been Catholic for about two years now. I understand depression. Understand that the closer you get to God doesn’t mean the devil will stop making you feel certain things, we all struggle with that daily, even priests. So please just accept that <3 but the more you pray, the stronger you will get in your faith & your relationship with God, & those thoughts won’t move you so much anymore.
Don’t quite. Please…it’s not worth it to lose faith. You’ll just hit rock bottom even worse. I lost faith many times & didn’t learn my lesson until I had my son three weeks ago, then I realized my son was a gift from God & I can’t afford to lose faith any more. Also understand that God understands your pain b/c you have you have to remember, God did send his only son (whom he loved dearly) to die on the cross for our sins. Even God gets sad b/c of what he sees on this earth, which his intention was to create perfect love, not sin. Plus He just understands your pain, He’s the one who created you. He’s gonna know how his beautiful creation feels.
Please remember you’re beautiful & God created you for a reason. He really did. This might sound cliche but read your bible. Read Proverbs everyday, The book even says itself you will have more of a clear mind & sound mind. The more you immerse yourself in God’s love, the more peaceful you will feel. Remember, God is everything positive: Love, peace, trust, hope, faith, light, gentle…he is still a righteous Lord & you should still fear Him, but not the way you fear a murderer or a threatening person, but the fear knowing God is God, & he will always be God…but God is Love. Period <3
Start a journal. Write to God all the darkness you feel inside, cry to him, just go on & on about what’s not right to get these feelings out. Even if it doesn’t make sense & looks like blah blah blah, well God cares . Praise God everyday by saying the Gloria, it’s a very powerful prayer & will help your relationship with God grow. always praise God everyday. He loves you more than you could ever imagine. And He wants you to know that.
Now, I’m not perfect. I know what depression is. I know it too well, but always keep God in your heart, he will keep you from falling apart, I promise you.
Please know He’s here & He’s listening to your prayers. I cannot tell you how many times I feel as if God doesn’t listen but he does. Believe believe believe. God knows how you feel and all of your thoughts, but He wants to hear your prayers to Him. He wants to hear you.
Also, go to confession if you haven’t already this week. Some sins can drag on us like millions of horses attached to us.
And something else not spiritual, but can also create some type of change is, rearrange your furniture or start a new hobby: poetry, painting, singing, sowing, photography & so on. There is always at least one hobby that brings someone joy to the heart.
I could say a lot more but I just want to be simple: OH! That’s another thing…keep things simple, don’t beat yourself up about everything, keep your home clean, start a new routine…don’t let the depression stop you from LIVING, no matter how powerful it is.
I will pray for you my dear. But also pray for yourself. Keep your head up, b/c you’re here for a reason, but don’t try too hard looking for that reason if you are, just live for God. Fake it until you make it. Yes, like someone else said on here: be fore you do something say Lord I’m doing this for you. I agree. There is always someone there to listen to you, give them a call <3 God Bless you Breathe…just breathe <3