I am so depressed, my wife doesn’t want sex anymore and doesn’t care that I do.
I do so much for her, I do most between us actually but she is being selfish. She just shrugs her shoulders.
We are both catholics but how do I go my whole life without sex? I am not allowed to masturbate either. I don’t want to just masterbate like when I was a teen but I am desperate, it feels like someone is playing with my bits and walking away, I constatntly feel turned on as its been so long, even waking during the night every night turned on and not being able to sleep. This is the worst feeling.
The feeling of rejection hurts too.
Wiping my wifes bum wouldn’t be enjoyable but if she were ill and I needed to do it then I would out of love for her, I wouldn’t just shrug my shoulders at her and maybe I will have to do that one day if my wife has parkinsons or alzheimers or something like that. Or maybe if I have something like that she wont look after me and just dump me in a hospice.
I cant go to communion when I sin in that way which is at despeperation and she shrugs her shoulders and goes to communion herself.
How am I supposed to get to heaven? why is it so hard for a man, my body constantly telling me to have sex. I either go to hell or I pray for testicle cancer so they get chopped off but then I would be in a different type of depression and I am sure if I told her I had cancer she would shrug her shoulders at that too.
we are in our thirties, I cant go 30/40 years without sex it is impossible.
I don’t know how to pray for this.
I know if I were starving my wife and she wanted it I would be a selfish man pushing her into the arms of another man where she can get love but as she is starving me then I know I will be the selfish one somehow.