I just put up a post this morning about a crisis in my living situation, in going through the day and thinking more about it and posting again at my blog, I have come to the realization–whether or not it is true that my father “pulled a string” to get me cut out of county housing services I was applying for, It suddenly dawned on me that he and my mother have been LYING about the sexual abuse! Its not that that astonishes me but that they are being believed! By my current and other recent providers! When they say that my interpretations of their behavior are untrue they are saying they don’t believe the specific instances of sexual abuse that I have talked about. They think it’s all my mental illness. Well, my illness is largely because of the sexual abuse!
My psychotherapist has given me a very good book to read about sexual abuse, and it is already helping me. But she directed me to carefully read all the preambles and one of them is a long section about false memories and recovered memories and how it is difficult for the therapist to discern whether memories are real. I asked her if she believed me about the abuse and she hedged.
This is awful. Ill be on eggshells until I see my therapist again next week.