I’m autistic and don’t understand a lot of the fervor behind so-called “sexual attraction” and “romantic attraction” and all that. I’ve been in several relationships, but I can’t quite grasp the concept of this “sexual energy” we celibate people are supposed to be harnessing. I’m not “asexual,” either. In my view, I’m supposed to be with whomever God calls me to be with, and that means the concept of labeling myself with a politically-correct sexual orientation goes out the window. My sexual orientation is Catholic.
Recently, I’ve been feeling called to check out the religious life, but I don’t know if it’s a phase I’m going through or a whim or if it’s actually a sign from God.
My question is this: Is sexual or romantic attraction a similar feeling to a calling to a religious vocation? I’ve heard that those called to the religious life sense a deep inner peace that the world cannot provide, but isn’t that how we’re supposed to feel when we’re with our significant other whom God calls us to marry?
Since I’ve never experience sexual attraction (you can attempt to explain it to me, but there’s no guarantee I will get it), I can’t relate it to anything, and innocently having chaste words and actions when I’m completely oblivious of their effects on other people is a cross I carry.
Thanks in advance for any tips and tidbits you have to share, and God bless!