Ive let apathy seemingly take over me lately. I really cant say whats wrong with me other than I feel empty,depressed and unmotivated. Recently I started going to church again due to it coming back in my life at what seems to be like the right time. Eh its just been stressful some issues ive been dealing with are:
- Ended it with this girl I was madly in love with who told me she really had no feeligns for me and I meant nothing to her. Shes currently has a thing going with one of my best friends. So im removing myself from my friend circle.
2.Friends kid just died.
3.Was mugged a week ago.
4.Friend was jumped after hanging out with me and hospitalized. He was mugged outside the school ive had my eyes set on for a while.
- Working through college apps.
6.Lead singer of a local band I knew died a week ago.
7.Lack of any ability what so ever to communicate or socialize as of recent.
I think faith is the major thing keeping me from getting drowned out by this depressive apathy. A week after me and the girl ended it I was at a monastery for a few hours and I felt so at peace. Then church last night through providence had a little homily on letting god in when your most distressed. Im trying its hard and well its taking its toll on me. Any advice would be usefull.