I could have written your post- I have had the same issues for quite some time. I too appreciate all of these responses.
I have, over the last few years, developed a strong devotion to St. Josemaria. He has encouraged me to see the great value in mental prayer- which is now- Praise God- a part of my daily prayer life. However, between mental prayer and the Divine Office (and I only pray Lauds and Vespers) the Holy Rosary has been set aside. The reason for this? Because I have always had a big problem with “piling up devotions” (as St. Josemaria criticized against)- and too often I get into the habit of just habitually saying words- NOT GOOD.
When St. Josemaria would counsel folks on how to develop a good, solid prayer life he recommended whatever one could do well- everyday. That will, obviously, vary from person to person. St. Josemaria said himself that he never wished to “straitjacket anyone” by defining a certain method or formula of prayer. He said that YOUR plan of life (your prayer life) should fit YOU like a “rubber glove”- his words- awesome huh.
If St. Josemaria strongly recommended any form of prayer it was probably two: Mental Prayer (just talking to God as you would talk to your own father or a friend) and the Holy Rosary. However, it is my opinion that- bottom line- he (or anyone else for that matter) recommend such a devotion because it fosters a greater love for Our Holy Mother Mary.
Here’s what I do: I pray Lauds and Vespers, spend some time in mental prayer (usually in the morning), pray the Angelus (and say it slowly with LOVE), and talk to Jesus and Mary throughout my day- in my heart- offering everything to them.
I would suggest two things: First, go to Mary- talk to Her about it. Yes, she has appeared throughout history to all sorts of folks and so many wonderful saints have taught us so much about Her. However, what does she want to say to you- what does she want from you? Find a quiet space in your day and ask Her about this and talk to Her as you would talk to your mother- call Her Mom- be very familiar with Her- and tell Her you love Her.
Suggestion Two: check out St. Josemaria’s teachings on prayer- All of his writings are available totally free on the net.
God love you!