So during my time away from God I made friends with some people that don’t live the way God wants us to live and I totally created relationships with them for the wrong reasons. I think I would seek out people who were “more sinful” than me (I realize how horibly I was judging others) so that I could think what I was doing wasn’t that bad. It was pretty messed up. However a part of me was like I can save them and since I know about God I can bring God to them and just by spending time with me those people will be able to get to know God. I was obviously really deceived because one of the things that made me turn back to the faith was when I realized that I couldnt save anyone if I myself was losing and damaging my own soul. Im starting to think this is a super sneaky way that the enemy tempts me by making me think i can help people who are far away from God when really the point is to get me into relationships with these people to keep me further from God. Doesn’t the Bible say that God always gives you a way out of temptation? What if the temptation is so good that you dont even realize its a temptation? Or maybe I was lying to myself and in my heart I knew. I gues my question is what should I do with these relationships now? I dont want to cut people off because I know it will hurt them and part of me is like Im their only chance at getting to know God. Im starting to think this is pride though and I’ve been asking God to free me of it. At what point should I draw the line with friends and ex boyfriends and what about new friends I make? Like is it ok to talk with them? Im starting to think that even when I talk to these people it makes my spirit anxious and my mind starts to think all sorts of things and it distracts me. However I’m scared im closing myself off and becoming a hermit and arent we supposed to help one another as well? This is something that kept me away from the faith too, I guess I knew I would have to let a lot off people go but I wanted to bring God to them. Idk if this makes any sense please ask for clarification if you need it Another thing is important, I am really very weak when it come to standing up for myself and my beliefs like extremely weak. I literally just agree with what the other person says even if my heart thinks its wrong. This is definately one of my weak points. I also deleted a lot of my social media accounts and I keep thinking of how people are gonna feel when they notice Im not in their friends list any more because I know this can be a really hurtful feeling.
Also for example if I talk to a boy as friends and it makes him have impure thoughts about me should I stop talking to him since I am causing him to sin?
Also another thing, I try to pray for these people and it seems like they contact me after I pray for them. Im probably just reading to much into it.
Sorry if this was long but thank you for any advice!