I am currently in RCIA, and this Easter I will be recieved into the Church… it will naturally be very special for me, possibly a more important day to me than any other in my life…
I feel I would like my family to support me in this, even though I am the only one ever to even consider the Catholic Church, being the only one other than my aunt to be given to any sort of spiritual seeking.
By support me, I don’t mean that they would have to agree because obviously they won’t. My grandparents are very offended that I won’t take communion in their church, and are also upset because last time I went to the family cottage for a week, I chose to attend a Catholic MASS as opposed to attending their church with them when they are the ones who essentially made it impossible for me to get to any other MASS but the one that ran the same time as their church service did. They feel that as they have “Catholic” friends who have attended their church and recieved communion there, that I should behave similarly - especially as I am not even in full communion with the Church just yet.
My father and brother, on the other hand, are atheists - and treat my spiritual seeking as a family joke. The only one who might respect, though not understand, my decision - is my stepmother.
I am nineteen and have lived in my own apartment for a year and am now rooming and boarding with a lovely couple who have shared their Catholic faith and family traditions with me this year - so I deffinitely have the right to make my own decisions concerning my personal faith and religion apart from the will of my parents and extended family.
I have asked my mother already and I honestly don’t know what she thinks… she just says that she knows it’s important, but she’ll see what she can do…
I just would like to be able to share that particular moment with my parents and grandparents because I know it will be one of the happiest moments of my life. I want them to know how happy I will be, and to be happy with me because I have drawn closer to Christ than I ever thought possible and because my deepest desire will have been finally, finally been met.
But should I even ask them? And if I should, the question then becomes how? And what am I supposed to feel if they refuse, or worse, if they come so they can tell me why I am wrong instead of rejoicing with me?
I would need to ask soon because it is almost February, and my dad’s family and brother live a 6hr drive away, my grandparents at least 3hrs - making it neccessary that if they choose to come, I find them accommodations and that will be a challenge having almost no money to spare.