Hello. I’m currently going through the RCIA program. I believe there is truth in the catholic faith.
I’ve been using pornography since I was 12 years old on an almost daily basis. I’m 26 now.
I have read so many books and the bible. One of them being St Augustine’s Confessions. I feel armed with knowledge as to why this sin is wrong.
I know it’s negatively affecting by ability to love others and god. I feel like I die a little inside each time I commit this sin. It’s gotten to the point where I no longer feel guilty. I find it difficult to even turn to god or christ. I know it’s leading to spiritual death. I find it difficult to even care about salvation. My prayers are not heartfelt. I keep diving right back into this sin on an almost daily basis.
I feel like I need to tell someone, to hold me accountable. I’m eager to recieve the sacrament of reconciliation. But this is not an option as I’m not catholic yet.
I don’t know who to tell. Is it a good idea to try and schedule a time to talk with the priest?