Please know that this is a very personal post for me…
I so want to be a good Catholic family that doesn’t have to worry about whether we have more kids? I want to be open to life the way God intended? I really want more children and very soon! I love being a mom and love the gift of having a child and the beauty of life! I don’t love my marriage!
My marriage has a lot of problems, and I don’t know if the problems obligate me to wait or not. I do think we have a true marriage covenant and that divorce isn’t really an option. I also believe it would be good for my son to have siblings.
Here are some of the problems:
-lack of respect from partner
-arguing all the time, my partner antagonizes me a lot
-partner prefers some sort of media (ie:computer, tv) to family, I have to nag constantly about this
-partner and I have not been intimate since a few months before giving birth
-I do not feel love for my partner and feel very betrayed by his selfishness
-I get angry a lot with him and say very insulting mean things. I try to hold back but feel so hurt a lot.
-my partner is very prideful and selfish
-we are practicing Catholics at least fulfilling our obligations
-I am a stay at home mom and striving everyday to grow in our faith
-despite hubby’s love of media, he does spend a lot of time with son even though I have to constantly nag him to get off computer, tv or pay attention
-I want to home school
-we are financially okay even though spouse is very selfish in this area
I could really use some advise here becasue I have been struggling internally for a while. Also I need advise regarding intimacy and whether I should be regularly intimate with my spouse. I really need help here!
Thanks and blessings to you!